Monday, December 22, 2008
Had drill just now. Super tiring to me. Think it's cos of my hectic schedule. Not enough sleep and stuff. Anw, now whenever I breathe in deeply, my chest and back would hurt. No idea why. :/ Slept right after i bathed and had my lunch. Super tired. And the noisy construction outside my house ain't helping me at all. -_-" Everything seems to be going against me these days. :(If I'm going for drill tmr [which I most probably am], I'd really be shocked at myself for such committment. I just feel really sian going for drill. Sometimes even feel like asking my mum to write a letter [which she would be most happy to] to excuse myself. Maybe it's the holidays and loads of people are overseas [which i did miss a few sessions cos I was in Japan]. But I'm sure there are people who purposely pon drill sessions. And I'm really frustrated with those few people. Here we are in school, faithfully going for drill everyday and there they are busy sleeping at home or going out with friends..etc. Do they know that it's so much hard work just to go for drill and 'satisfying' the commanders? Do they know that it's so selfish of them to pon drill just cos they don feel like it? Do they know that their actions make all of us who faithfully go for drill on every day that we can feel lousy? And I personally feel that there's too many practices. Esp this week in Dec. I mean like.. At least let us enjoy this Christmas week with our church friends/school friends/family? These drill sessions and camp are helping me miss out so much of their activities. But i guess we can't help it right. We still need to go on with our camp and 1 more drill practice this year. It's all because our drill is still not up to standard. We can't get the rhythm in our head and because there are always people not turning up for drill. Therefore the commanders have to teach us everything all over again every week which is such a dread.Let's talk about committments. I have 3 main committments in my life now other than family and friends. ChurchI help out in the childrens' ministry. At times I really felt like giving up [too]. Cos the children now are so hard to please. They've all grown up so fast and mostly, every week they're just so sianed. But I press on and carry out my duties. Sometimes I go just for the sake of doing and just get it done and over with. But at times I find it a joy to see the smile on their faces.GBYeah. Still going down for drill practices despite my super busy schedule. I even rushed down from council chalet once just because I felt that I should go and not give some lousy excuse that "oh, i got council chalet thats why I didn't go for drill." Though I have other activities going on, I skip them thinking that they might have other outings again next year and I'll definitely attend them. What's more, I think now, I'm giving my priority to GB than to church [isit a bad thing? :/ ] just cause of drill comp next year. The youths are going to sentosa tmr which I'll not be going cos of drill and they will be having a christmas celebration on the 26th which i'll not be going cos of drill camp and my duty is on for KOOL kids this sat which i'll not be helping out cos of drill camp again. My mum asked that I leave camp on saturday and come back on sunday to go to church. But I refused and told her that it'd be hard for the contingent to train with 1 or 2 people missing. What's more, as meHh said.. It might be our last camp for our sec sch life. So might as well go through it and we can reflect in the years to come that our very last camp in secondary school was drill camp blablabla. (: Don't get me wrong. I have nothing against drill. Yeah, I think that we should have drill sessions during the holidays to improve our drill and everything. But I just think that's it's too much? Idk. I din feel that way 2 years ago when we were in sec 1. Then, drill was awesome and we were all looking forward to it. Every single session. Ard 85-90% of us would be there for most of the drill sessions and we'd have fun. Our morale was high and we were eager to learn and improve our drill. But now, I have no idea what's going on. Like what Ms Tay [or rather, Mrs Goh (: ] said, our morale now is very low because every time we go for drill, we have to do the same thing over again as there're girls who didnt make it for the last drill session. Yeah, all in all... Even though I think it's too much, I still go for drill every session that I'm in sg. CouncilF2 have just finished our biggest [maybe our only?] project. Grad Night '08. I guess the Sec 4Es and 5Ns enjoyed themselves? Hopefully. To me, it was the best grad night so far that I've went to since sec 1. Actually, it was the dance floor that was the major success. Majority of them got to the dancefloor and started dancing their butts off. You should see the look on our faces.. Like.. "woah! they're really dancing?! and enjoying themselves! is this what grad night is really suppose to mean? is it true??" hahaha! But, really! We were amazed. I was super scared the night before that things will screw up and stuff. That it'll be the sameboring grad night it will be like it always was the years before. But it wasn't. So i guess we should all just have faith and pray that everything would go on fine? Yeah. And I can predict that when 2009 starts, we would have lots of projects coming our way due to the restructure and stuff. And sec 1 orientation too! Can't wait. :D There's gna be a dry run on the 29th and 30th dec. Right after drill camp. Though I'll be tired, I'll still go yea. :]
Signed off @4:37 PM.
