Bye Bye
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone
Friday, August 17, 2007
what's the point of having tuition after tuition every week when i'm not passing that subject? they keep telling me that i've got to show them that i can cope with the subject myself then i can quit tuition. but if i have tuition and i cant cope, how am i gna cope it all by myself? having tuition is just a total waste of money and time. i've kinda given up on that subject long time ago but am just persevering on so that i can quickly finish my studies and be done with. i totally hate studying. what's the use of studying when u still fail? what's the point if u keep on practicing math every night with someone good but still end up failing it? i tell u.. it sucks. it sucks to let that person down. it sucks to deprove so much. it sucks when everyone is improving and me, deproving. it sucks when, especially now, is going to be at the end of the year exams and streaming where it determines what u re going to do when u grow up. it sucks. first two papers that i get back? fail, fail. held back my tears and tell myself that i can do it. but in actual fact.. im telling myself how sucky i am.. how useless i am.. how.. disappointing i am.. im just a useless freak. even though i might be chatting with people online now.. seeming cheerful and all.. actually im not. im totally not feeling ok. im totally not feeling cheerful. life sucks. please don ask me bout my results anymore. i don feel like breaking down in front of people.
